i'm in a mess , everything is all over the place , i need someone , someone who can advice me on what to do now badly . Why am i worrying things that i shouldn't worry about and leave the important things aside . I kept telling myself , what is real , practical , what is perhaps a short fantasy , but i just can't help myself . I hope that few years down the road , everything i am doing now is worthwhile of my time , of the stresses they gave me . Why ? shouldn't now with someone by your side , you would have someone to talk to , someone to turn to , someone to run to and someone to pour out everything inside you ? I really can hardly bear with it , can you pull me up from it and i would thank you after that . Everything now is as important to me , giving up one is to give everything up . i swear every single thing is as important , but do you know how i am feeling ? How paranoid can i be , if i were to carry on this way , i'm sure one day you will get sick of it and bid farewell to me . This is the last thing that i want , and i praying everyday this day will never ever come . Perhaps everything needs time and experience which i have none . I knew what to do now , but i just can't put it to act . Can you guide me along ? Can you be patience with me ? Can you tolerate me ? Can you understand me ? I guess i am out of my mind to be so into you . All this is beyond my control , i told myself to hold back , but it just went on and on . Why did you tell me that you aren't good enough for me ? Is this how you should do when you are in love ? To see whose better for who ? No . I want to share with you my world , but you wouldn't . Tell me again how much i mean to you will you ? Tell me again that i can be assured to be with you will you ? Tell me again you are happy when you are with me will you ? Tell me again not to hide a thing from you will you ? Can you tell me what is this now , i am dying to know ...