I really feel like giving up everything at times , it is like stepping on the acceleration pad occasionally and the car moves a little at a time and stops . This can't go on , i well aware of that since starting of the year , but now , 1 month is all i am left with . Optimism left me , pessimism greeted me , good times says bye , hard times says hi which i don't understand why . All this was initiated by me . If 2 years ago i didn't choose to pick up on music , it definitely won't be like this now . If i had worked hard since primary school and built a strong foundation , it definitely won't be that hard now . If you didn't left us years ago , it is going to be so different now . If you didn't do that to her years ago , she definitely will be with us now . If she is with us now , i don't know what will be of us . Everything seems to drain away from my life , fortunately the major things are still with me . I know that at every stage of everyone's life , problems are inevitable , problems are solvable . Now my problem is i don't have the question , i have none . I don't know how far i can still run , i don't know how much energy i am left with but i know that i will have to face it someday . It is when you are encountering difficulties , you will realise who are the ones you can rely on and count on them in the future . Just a simple gesture like pulling you up when you are feeling down really mean a lot . Thank god for bestowing such a friend to me . 'What seems tragic now may not even be an issue in 1o years time ' , i got this quote from a novel which i personally think its quite meaningful . 'I felt sorry for myself when i had no shoes until i met a man who had no feet' , this sentence conveys impeccably how i am feeling now .

I didn't know life throws me such a curve ball at this moment of time , now that i am on the field , all i can do is to catch it with all my might . Don't always plan too far ahead because you will never know what may turn out to be in between . Yes , have a goal , nothing wrong with that , it is an indicator but not a route . As long as you have direction , you wont go wrong . The indicators acts as a yardstick , whenever you pass by your checkpoint , you will know you are on the right track . Even if you miss one of those checkpoints , fear not , as long as you have the drive , you can still find back your directions. The thing is if you don't move , don't even mention direction , you don't even have the map anymore . Now that i have the map , i am figuring where , how and who to go with .

i can manage .